Fear of Happiness

I’m so scared

Can’t love

Can’t give you my hand

Can’t hug, can’t feel

All this was snatched away at birth

Lack of communication

Cant express my emotions

It’s too hard to touch

Can’t cross the bridge

Can’t let go

Can’t go free

You scare me

Your perfection

Your life full of love

Full of affection

Stay away

Cos I’m standing on my own

That’s all I know

Can’t complete myself

Cos I’m already full

Full of pain and

Fear of happiness.

Disabled in Love

Can’t stop the pain

That nausiating feeling in the deep of my stomach

My insides are screaming

My head is spinning

Your coldness hit me

Like walking into a peine of glass

Can’t stop the hurting

The rolling’s not working

The suffocating feeling in my throat

Making it harder and harder for me to breathe

Silver dots are filling my eyes

I’m nearly blinded

Losing control

Imersing myself in a never ending tunnel

A whirlwind of despair

Hitting the ground with a thud

The pain echoing through my body

 

Disability

That’s what I am

Disabled

Disabled in love…